disappointment.

You know, i think bio was my biggest disappointment this year. Bigger than Track Nationals which i withdrew from, bigger than withdrawing my appeal from mjc, bigger than my cold war with ki, much bigger than whatever thing i bought and then didnt like.


Of course, except maybe the whole not going to arts bit and the whole thing with him. Heh.




Looking at it, it's all regrets. But i think i didnt regret bio as much. Maybe i did, because bio, was and is my life. First and last paper i cried over this year. I dont know what to say. Really.

Then, i dont like it when people come up telling me that, God will pull you through and than, you wont fail/retain/whatever-other-thing-people-like-to-say because i know even though to an extent they're right, but fact is, it's not that He will, but rather He can if He wants. I know they're only trying to console the blubbering me, but still, my brain just cant let that bit of infomation slip. Instead, it becomes even clearer and of more weightage then.

The verse from Jeremiah 29:11 keeps popping into my head, God, i'm just so afraid.